This Monster of Mine by Shalini Abeysekara

Title: This Monster of Mine
Author: Shalini Abeysekara

Genre: Fantasy

Series: This Monster of Mine # 1

Publication: April 1, 2025, 416 pages

Source: Purchase

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Eighteen-year-old Sarai doesn't know why someone tried to kill her four years ago, but she does know that her case was closed without justice. Hellbent on vengeance, she returns to the scene of the crime as a Petitor, a prosecutor who can magically detect lies, and is assigned to work with Tetrarch Kadra. Ice-cold and perennially sadistic, Kadra is the most vicious of the four judges who rule the land - and the prime suspect in a string of deaths identical to Sarai's attempted murder.

Certain of his guilt, Sarai begins a double life: solving cases with Kadra by day and plotting his ruin by night. But Kadra is charming and there's something alluring about the wrath he wields against the city's corruption. So when the evidence she finds embroils her in a deadly political battle, Sarai must also fight against her attraction to Kadra - because despite his growing hold on her heart, his voice matches the only memory she has of her assailant...

MY THOUGHTS

I received This Monster of Mine in a subscription box last year, and while the summary always sounded intriguing, I wasn’t entirely convinced about reading a novel with an eighteen-year-old FMC in what is supposed to be a new adult/adult book. However, I am so glad I gave this book a chance because it was absolutely amazing. I’m kind of kicking myself for not starting it sooner!

I am a sucker for anything inspired by Ancient Rome. The world-building was vivid and well developed. I could easily picture Sarai strolling around Ur Dinye and taking in the picturesque Academiae buildings. The magic system was fascinating; many of the powers stemmed from something akin to blood magic, using blood over runes to activate abilities such as mind-probing, healing, illusions, and creating fire and lightning, to name a few. I thought the book was beautifully written. The plot was gripping, the pacing was perfect, and the combination of mystery, political intrigue, and forbidden romance balanced the story perfectly.

Over the past couple of years, I’ve noticed an emergence of novels centered around feminine rage. The majority, if not all, are, in my opinion, poorly written, or the reasons for the FMC’s rage are not well defined or justifiable. Usually, the causes of their rage feel innocuous or asinine. To be honest, they were so bad I was starting to get jaded. This Monster of Mine is the first book that truly encapsulates what a feminine rage story ought to be. Abeysekara created a brave, intelligent, sympathetic, and caring heroine who experienced the horrors of what humanity is capable of, whether through deplorable acts committed by strangers, fellow citizens, superiors, colleagues, or so-called friends. It was refreshing to see that, despite everything, Sarai did not become bitter, hateful, or unlikable like the perpetrators. Instead, her experiences propelled her to fight harder against the injustices of the world while remaining steadfast in her beliefs and sense of self. That was admirable and something I love seeing in a lead character. Her growth and transformation were incredible to witness, and although the story took place over only a couple of months, it still felt realistic and believable. I also thought the rest of the cast was extremely well written and fleshed out, even the villains.

This Monster of Mine was an incredible first book. I was fully immersed in the world Abeysekara created and completely invested in the story and characters. I can’t wait to read the sequel, and I already know this will be a series I revisit again and again. I highly recommend This Monster of Mine; it had everything: a compelling storyline full of action, mystery, suspense, and romance, beautiful writing, and unforgettable characters.